Post Partum Depression

Post partum depression is a reality and anyone who tries to tell you other wise is lying.

It can hit the very next day a few weeks later or even randomly some day two or three months later.

However it really isn't anything else but an extremely overwhelming feeling. You feel like everything is just too much... 

The baby,the fact that you are now responsible for another person, that a little child is going to look up to you for every little thing he needs.... 

Your body and what has happened to it will do it for you... The change in your size your skin your hair your swollen feet... Not fitting in older clothes ( even though you may be smart enough to understand its normal there will be days when you will try on that pair of jeans and curse everyone that day when it just doesn't zip up!!! )... Standing in front of a mirror and just not recognising yourself...

It can get to a point even when every little voice every little sound everything will start getting on your nerves... Seeing people around you happy and smiling and free will piss you off beyond belief.. And then you'll feel super guilty and drive yourself even more crazy...

So stop... When you feel an onset of one of those roller coaster rides... Stop... Leave the room... Cry... It helps immensely... Listen to music don't talk to anyone if you don't feel like it you will only start a fight... Take deep breaths and tell yourself that this is only normal... 

Having a baby while it is the most wondrous moment of your life.. It is also the most life altering moment... Physically emotionally you are coping with way too many things for you to not break down once in a while... But just try and be aware of these emotions... It helps to know.. It's easier to fix for you for your husband... And trust me its way way better for you to  be with your baby once you have understood where these feelings are coming from... 

Just learn to deal with these emotions when they come.. Do t try to suppress them like some super mom... And trust me you will get over them... They are natural and more often than not short termed... 

So smile!!!