When he smiles back

Being a new mommy, you're never sure whether you're day started to early or your night ended too late... 5:30 is an odd hour.. And this thought is what makes your days and nights just roll into one full week and then a month and so on...

The other hours get filled up feeding the baby.. Sterilising his bottles making his formula.. Heating it .. Then cooling it because you didn't pay attention to the clock on the micro and he won't have it till its the perfect temperature.... 

Then when he gets cranky you rock him to sleep.. He won't sleep so you get on the swing and try swinging him to sleep .. He won't sleep.. So you sing in your horrible voice (!!!!!) you sing funny songs any songs hoping he'll sleep but he won't.. Then finally when you're out of things to do you suddenly realise he's knocked out...

Only to wake up again.. And now you have to entertain him.. So you make funny faces... Scrunch up your nose.. Wiggle your eyebrows.. Pout your lips... Shake your whole head maybe do a jig and then.. Suddenly.. He smiles!!! 

He smiles and he laughs his big toothless laugh...he crinkles his little nose and throws his head back and he laughs...

And you forget your days and nights have merged, you forget you sterilise the bottles a hundred times a day.. You forget you are exhausted and tired and grumpy.. 

And you laugh with him.. You laugh your big happy laugh and throw your head back with out a care in the world.. Just because your little sunshine smiled at you today :)