Piece of my heart...

Aadi and I were out today for some work... It took more time than we had estimated... 

Siddy was with mum.. And he had had a cough and cold the last few days... But he was going to school happily so we were ok... 

When we left from bandra we messaged mum that we were on our way home like we always do.. No reply. 

Closer to home we get a call... Where are you, how long will you take? He's a bit off he's been crying. 

We drive a bit faster. 

Mum never calls unless it's something serious... 

In ten minutes she calls back... His ear is hurting get some drops... And he threw up a little..

Now we are worried... Ear hurting is not a good sign.. And throwing up with it is worse.. 

We called the doc ... He recommend an ibugesic... There is some at home so we rush now... All the painful autos come in our way... All the bottle necks are suddenly blocked... When you're in a rush you always get the slowest driver in front of you...

We get home.. Run up.. And there he is.. He sees us and and his chin starts quivering... Big tears are now rolling down his little cheeks and his arms are stretched out to me...

I take him and hug him.... And kiss him... He seems so small... Oh he's too small for this... He keeps pointing to his ear... 

We give him the ibugesic and he's quietened down a little... I take him in the room put on the ac... The heat is ridiculous .... 

Curl him up to me and sing him some songs.. Read him a Bruno book... And next thing I see his eyes are shutting... 

He's asleep...

Nothing in this world can wrench at your heart than your baby and his quivering chin... And nothing can make you feel better than knowing you're the one to make him feel comforted...

Something about being the person, whom, when he hugs, he forgets all his pain and feels happy and protected... It's a high.... It can make you feel like heaven.... 

To have that little baby stretch his arms towards you... Oh my god! 

Babies really are just a piece of your heart walking around you... They are the most vulnerable part of you... And when they get sick... You feel like hell.... Even a basic cold... When I can see him struggle to breathe... Or when he coughs so much that tears roll down his eyes... It's unbearable.... 

But he woke up better... He stayed in a zone for almost half an hour after he woke up... But then he was good.... 

He played and ate a little and had all his medicines... We put nose drops for the cold, Vicks too... 

He's sleeping next to me now... His soft breathing is calming me down...  

But oh god... He's too small...